The Healing Presence of a Shadow

I think I went a little crazy over Shakespeare's sonnets when I wrote this one back in college. My classmate and friend, Luci Grace(God rest her soul), showed this to our English Professor who then gladly provided the title for this(many thanks, Mr. Ed Fernandez).


That moment in time when clouds do take
away the golden rays that stretch beyond
to meet the outstretched hand quivering
shaking in the quest for warmth
that time of year most thoughts of Thee occur
long before Thou had come the cold arms
of emptiness embraced me
tightly that I was like a rose
unkissed by morning dew
Thou hast shown me the bright flowers
dancing beneath the sunny sky the music
of raindrops and the beauty of teardrops
Dearest one, Thy touch had saved the life of me
To care that much, Thy heart must be of gold.

---The Healing Presence of a Shadow
by C. Sienes 11/21/1989

Foot Pain

Last week, my Significant Other complained about pain at the ball of his foot. It seemed that it had been bothering him for some time but he only told me about it when the pain intensified to the extent that he had to use crutches for a few hours just to walk around the room. For a while, we thought the problem might have been brought about by the new pair of shoes he got which he often used for taking long walks. The next few days had us brainstorming about what the problem could be and if something could be done about it. After considering several possible causes and finding the exact location of the pain, we arrived at the conclusion that it could be Metatarsalgia (foot pain affecting the balls of the foot usually the first, second, or third digit/toe and at times, affecting only the head of the big toe). This condition appears to be due to wearing constricting shoes and/or high-heeled shoes. Thankfully, it can be corrected so I was able to breathe a sigh of relief. Now, we are in the process of choosing the right Orthotics( foot cushions or cushioned insoles designed to alleviate pain and/or correct deformity) for him. I kept nagging him about getting Orthotics and I am so glad that finally, my nagging has worked, LOL. I truly just cannot bear to see him in pain. Anyway, this is all for now. All this talk about foot pain seems to be making me pay particular attention to my own feet and wonder WHAT IF....? Sheesh. Ha ha ha.

THE DREAM (HOLD ON TO YOUR DREAM) --IRENE CARA

This song from Irene Cara reminds me about me and my neverending chase for my dreams. For those of you who have dreams, never let go of them. Keep dreaming, keep reaching for them, and keep believing because often, dreams do come true...

I've been chasing dreams for so long
Just one step behind and then they're gone
Illusions of love would come and go
I guess you have to hurt before you grow
And everybody knows
Never let go of the, never let go of the dream

I always seem to lose what I thought was mine
And many times I tried to leave it behind
Deep inside, hope was still alive
Deep inside, dreams will never die
That is why we're movin' closer to the truth

It's really great for me to be here
I've won over the pain and the fear
It's been so very hard through the years
Been looking through a rainbow of tears
And still I never really let go of the dream

Sometimes I saw my life just falling apart
And all the rejection tearing at my heart
Deep inside, hope was still alive
Deep inside, dreams will never die
If you try there'll be so much more for you

It's really great for me to be here
I've won over the pain and the fear
It's been so very hard through the years
Been looking through a rainbow of tears
And still I never really let go of the dream

We can all be free, we hold the key
If we can see what we wanna be
Life's never easy, you get no guarantees
Why not give your all and see what you can find

ON HIATUS

It's been a long while since I posted a new entry here. I've been on semi-haitus as I have been quite busy on other pressing concerns with seeking overseas employment, talking to foreign HR people, renewing my AMT (American Medical Technologists) Certification, and other stuff. It's likely this hiatus will continue for the next 3 months or so as I shall be focusing more on reviewing on my own for another Professional Certification Exam. It seems the exams never end and there are certifications one after the other for me to contend with. Alas, woe is me, ha ha ha. I shall try to post new, short entries now and then, if I can. In the meantime, Merry Christmas everyone!!!

WAITING FOR A LIFETIME PARTNER FROM GOD

This was shared to me by one of my closest friends many years ago when I first joined the Catholic Renewal 13-Sunday Seminar enroute to becoming part of the CFC Singles for Christ. I would like to share this now to all my friends, especially, Karen, and everyone else out there who has yet to find their lifetime partners. I believe that we really should pray for and ask God for that lifetime partner and not just jump into a relationship all for the sake of having one. True love is always worth the wait and if that love is a gift from God Himself, then that love will be of the lasting kind. God loves us and He will only give us the best...if we wait. I should know, it happened to me and it could happen to you:)

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone –

to have a deep soul relationship with another,

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But God, to the Christian, says, No,

not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone –

with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me –

with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone

will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me –

exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,

and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing –

one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things –

keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.

Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.

You just wait. That’s all. Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry.

Don’t look around at the things others have or that I’ve given them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want.

You just keep looking off and away up to Me,

or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready,

I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready,

and until the one I have for you is ready

(I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time),

until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me

and the life I prepared for you,

you won’t be able to experience the love

that exemplifies your relationship with Me,

and this is the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me,

and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty,

perfection, and love that I offer you with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly.

I am God.

Believe it and be satisfied.

- Author Unknown

CLAIRE, The Vamp

Yep, you got it. Vampire eyes. I've got a bloodshot right eye at the moment, thanks to a freak accident last October 31st. Who would have thought that a small pebble from the road would find its way inside a public utility vehicle (with me on board) and hit the corner of my right eye? Certainly not me! The next thing I knew, my eye hurt. It was raining cats and dogs that night and since there was no trace of blood, I thought I'd wait till I got home and made an assessment of my eye's condition before I sought medical help.

When I finally got home, I immediately looked for a mirror and thought I was such a sight. Eat your heart out, Christopher Lee. Claire the Vamp is around now. LOL. Of course, I went to the ER the next day and had my eye checked by a Surgeon since there was no EENT doctor around. It was November 1, anyway. Most doctors don't hold clinics on All Saints' Day. To make a long story short, the Surgeon examined my eye and didn't see anything to worry about. Except that she said that if I wanted to and for my peace of mind, I could go visit an Opthalmologist of my choice just to double check.

That, I will do, come Wednesday morning this week. I wouldn't want to be walking around with a Red Eye lest I get mistaken for a Vampire-in-the-making, ha ha ha. Though, I probably wouldn't mind if someone mistook me for Kate Beckinsale in UNDERWORLD and UNDERWORLD EVOLUTION.

Well, gotta go. Van Helsing seems to be after me now, ha ha ha. Just kidding:)

OCEAN DREAMS

This is for my "OceanSky" and the oceans of love that I have been blessed to share with you....

OCEAN DREAMS
by C. Louise S.

Three decades of deep slumber
soon I awake, I see my ocean sky
swimming, drowning in pools of amber
eyes that mirror my heart's long cry.
Come wade in love's sweet waters,
your soul and mine afloat shall mate;
sailing thus, to happy ever-afters,
two hearts now beat as one by fate.
Beloved, the wind carries your name
stirring waves and waves of longing deep;
Out of depths from where I came,
The sun in your eyes,oh let me keep.
Just as the waves rush to kiss the shore
and once-broken wings take flight,
the journey ends, we search no more;
Together we bask in love's pure light.